Now, I would like to talk about my first cat, Kimi!! I’ve already told you that she’s missing and until now I couldn’t find her, because I don’t have any lead about her missing.

when she was child

when she was kitten

In 2013, when I was in 3rd grade in senior high school, I really want to have cat like really bad. I don’t know what triggered that, but the want in me was really high that I had to mention it like everyday to my mom and even I promised to take care of the cat with my money. Maybe because my mom fed up of me, so she agreed. My mother has a friend who’s cat lover. He had 3 cats that time if I’m not mistaken and one of my friend’s cats was pregnant. My mother then asked my friend if his cat gives birth, she would like to have one. Sooo, I had one.

The timing was perfect. It was one week after my birthday. So, the new kitten actually was my present from my mom. I named it Kimi from Rugrats. And it suits her though. Kimi is a Turkish Angora breed, she liked to climb. When she was still in my home, she usually liked to climb in the partition rotan in my house and then she sat on top of it. She’s beautiful, and nope, it’s actually from the neutral POV not because I love her.

She liked to wake my mother’s up by scratching my parent’s door in the morning, and when my mom’s cook, she liked to sit in the small window in the kitchen.

when we went to Semarang by car

when we went to Semarang by car

When my family and I went to Semarang, she joined us too! She liked to watch other vehicles, and sit on top of our bags. We even had to put bags to cover the under front seats, because she liked to explore around, and it’s very dangerous if she goes to the driver’s area.

My father, who used to hate cats because he thinks that cats are dirty, now loves cats. It’s all because of her. Well, she will be in our hearts, even though we don’t know her condition.

More Kimi’s pictures:

she's beautiful, isn't she?

she’s beautiful, isn’t she?


when I played video game

when I played video game




Missing Pet

Aku gunain bahasa, karena jujur aja topik ini salah satu emosional buat aku.

Kucing pertamaku yang namanya Kimi, hilang dari rumah, karena ada orang (aku bahkan nggak bisa manggil orang itu sebagai manusia) yang ngambil Kimi di pagi itu. Seperti yang aku bilang sebelumnya, Kimi adalah kucing pertamaku, dia adalah kucing jenis anggora, Kimi adalah betina, dia sangat cantik dalam skala kucing. Kimi sangat suka memanjat, dia bahkan biasanya suka duduk di pembatas ruangan yang dari rotan.

Kejadiannya adalah sebagai berikut. Dapur di rumahku terletak di belakang rumah. Setiap pagi, Kimi (yang selalu bangun lebih pagi dari kami) menunggu di depan pintu kamar mamaku (dia biasanya selalu membangun mamaku di pagi hari dengan menggaruk-garuk pintu kamar mamaku jam 4 pagi). Mamaku lalu ke dapur untuk memasak dan Kimi mengikuti dari belakang. Sebelum memasak, mamaku selalu membuka jendela agar udara di dapur lebih segar, dan Kimi selalu menemani mamaku masak dengan duduk di bingkai jendela yang dibuka. Jendelanya hanya berukuran persegi panjang kecil, terletak di dinding bagian atas yang memang hanya tujuannya agar udara masuk. Semua jendela di rumahku dipasang teralis, termasuk jendela dapur. Selagi mamaku menunggu masakan matang, mamaku mengambil bahan di kulkas yang berada di ruang makan. Ketika dia balik, Kimi sudah tidak ada lagi di jendela. Mamaku menganggap biasa-biasa saja, karena memang kebiasaan Kimi yang suka keliling di dalam rumah (dia bahkan pernah masuk ke lubang pipa yang ada di ruang jemuran).

Setelah mamaku masak, mamaku pun membangunkanku (meskipun punya alarm, mama adalah alarm paling berguna, haha ) agar aku bersiap-siap untuk ikut ujian masuk universitas. Aku juga ketika ingin berangkat menganggap biasa-biasa saja karena memang Kimi selalu suka pindah-pindah ruangan, jadi memang jarang kelihatan. Setelah aku ujian, selesai sekitar jam 3 sore, aku dijemput oleh mamaku dan mamaku memberi tahu kalau Kimi tidak kelihatan di rumah. Sontaklah aku panik di jalan, hingga ketika aku sampai di rumah, aku langsung mencari Kimi sampai 3 kali, bahkan memanggilnya dengan suara keras. Tetapi tidak ada respon sama sekali dan bahkan dia tidak kelihatan sekali pun. Ternyata ketika aku mengecek di dapur, di jendela dapur terdapat banyak sekali bulu-bulu kucing, aku tahu bahwa Kimi telah diambil paksa oleh orang di luar rumahku dengan memanjat pot tanaman yang ada di bawah jendela dapur.

You know that when person already finished the test, that person will felt at ease. Tetapi aku tidak merasakannya… Aku mengunci kamarku dan aku menangis.. Menangis yang tadinya hanya lirihan, tiba-tiba menjadi tangisan kejar, yang bahkan papaku dengar dari lantai bawah. Ketika itu, aku merasa bahwa dadaku sesak, aku bahkan tidak lagi memikirkan ujian masuk hari itu. My mom said that they are actually relieved that they found out Kimi’s missing in the noon, when I’m having a test, not in the morning. Because I’m really sure that if I found out KImi’s missing in that morning, I know that I wouldn’t be here, in this university. I know that I couldn’t even go to take the test if I know it. Even if my parents like drag me to the exam’s location, I know that my mind will not be in ease, that I know that I couldn’t even take pencil and use it, I couldn’t even look at the questions, because when I cried in my room when know that Kimi’s missing, all I felt is numb…

Do you know that Kimi is such a nice cat, that she didn’t use her claw to us, I still remember one time when girls in our home tried to cut Kimi’s nails using cat nail clipper, we unaccidentally cut her nail deep, and as a result she was bleeding. No, she didn’t even use her claw to get out of our grip, she tried to get out by kicking with her paws. I know that for sure, that when she was struggle from that animal who kidnapped her, I know that she didn’t even use her claw to defend herself. Heck, she even never bite us. She even rarely meos at us, that’s the reason why my mom didn’t realise that Kimi was taken by that animal. I can’t even imagine Kimi, my fragile cat, living outside of my house. I know that she couldn’t survive out there. I prefer her to dead than missing. It is the unknown what happen to her now that just drives me crazy.

I still remember how excited I was to get my first kitten for my birthday, after weeks of whining to my mom. I still remember, when Kimi joined us to go to Semarang, a ten hour driving, I still remember, when my family sneaked Kimi inside restaurant even though that the waiter said no (calm people, it was an outdoor restaurant, not indoor).

Even though that now I have three cats (Snowy, Molly, Bonnie), I’m still mourning her. I think it’s just me in the house that still feel really sad that she’s gone. Now, I can mention her, and even recall her memories in this house. But, there’s time when I look at her picture or even just thinking about that day that suddenly I’m crying.

And God… I know that it’s been a year that Kimi was gone, but now I’m writing this with all of my tears just come out from my eyes. It’s still painful when I’m thinking about Kimi. I just can’t let it go from my hearts.

Up until now, Internet is such great helper for me to overcome this. I realized that, there are many people out there, that actually have some experience like me. Even I found out that there’s few people who’s still crying for his/her cat after 10 years missing. And actually, I feel really glad, that I’m normal, that I’m not the only one who felt like this. Maybe because she’s my first pet that I really love (my previous pets are turtle, bunny, chicken), that I could bonding too, are the reasons why I feel such an overwhelming sadness.

For those of you who have a pet in your house, take a good care of them. They have heart too you know! Treat them as one of your family.

And last, here’s a quote:

“Until one has loved an animal a part of one’s soul remains unawakened” – Anatole France



Naminance’s Origin

Now, about the name of this blog. As I mentioned at my first blog, I’m a nerd. I really like to play video games (I’m a console gamer!!). So, there’s this video game called Dead Island. It’s about the main characters stuck in island full of zombies. And when I played this, I thought about hell in paradise. You can watch the trailer of that game at Youtube, it’s actually a bit sad. At first the family goes on vacation, they are like doing family things happily, and suddenly they are being chased by zombies. The official trailer is in reverse time, so if you want to watch the “normal” time, you can watch it at IGN channel. And no, up until now I don’t finish the game. I couldn’t. Dead Island is the type of the games that in the beginning it’s easy, but when you progress the story, it will becomes difficult, and currently I’m in the middle of the plot, and I can say… it’s difficult and the zombies are starting to freak me out. I mean, really, the zombies are not like in the films when they walk slowly, and say rubbish things like “aaaa”. In that game… They run, literally run like Forrest Gump (look what I try to put the reference in here, LOL). And when it’s dark… I can’t even go outside of the safe house because I’m scaredL.

When I signed up, I use “hell in paradise” for my website’s name, but… it’s already been taken. Since I don’t have enough creativity, I looked up on internet, and the internet said that if you want to make website name, you can go to After I went to that website, I chose English and France for preferred language, and when I searched it there’s “naminance” in there. I don’t know if I told you already or not, but one of my friend used to call me Nami, haha. The word “naminance” sounds good in my ear, and it reminds me of the character in my favourite video game “Kingdom Hearts”, so I use it as my blog name.

Have a good day!




Well… I don’t know what to say… Okay… First is WELCOME TO MY BLOG!! Actually I planned to make it in senior high school, then dragged back to plan it in the beginning of the college’s year… And now, it’s a second year of my college. LOL, I’m such a procrastinator. The plan was, when I pass one of top universities in my country, I will make a blog. But, maybe because I’m busy—and let’s face it that I’m a little bit lazy—I couldn’t make it. And it’s a shame that during the two and half months of holiday (I’m already miss it L) that I didn’t even start this blog. Well, holiday is supposed to going out, sleep, and play video games, haha (I’m such a nerd, really ). So now, in the beginning of my second year, I made this blog. And I know that I’ll rarely write in this blog, because this will be hectic, like a really hectic year.

Actually I don’t know what I should put in this blog. They are bunch of blogs that dedicated in just one type, like travelling blog, beauty product review blog, and daily life blog. The thing is… I can’t make that, for example the one with beauty product review blog. I’m not the type of people who just buy the makeup, buy it and then just try it. No. I don’t want to buy something that in the end I’m going to regret it. I’m the type of people when to buy something; I have to look the review at least 8 reviews in the internet or usually I try my friend’s make up before buy it. AND, I always bring my friend to buy makeup because I want my friend’s opinion. I can’t rely on the seller’s opinion because they always wear heavy makeup, that I’m actually cringe when I look at them and they are rely on commission. And friend is always brutally honest when I want to ask their opinion about what my choice.

So, I decided to make this blog all of them above, from my ramblings, travelling, beauty product, and etc. And, maybe I’ll use my native language, well, if my laziness starts to kick it in the future.

That’s all that I have to say. I would like to say thank you, for visiting my blog, and hopefully, that all of you who visit read all of my writings. Have a blast day!



P.S.: For those all of you who are grammar nazi, bear with me. English is NOT my native language.