Missing Pet

Aku gunain bahasa, karena jujur aja topik ini salah satu emosional buat aku.

Kucing pertamaku yang namanya Kimi, hilang dari rumah, karena ada orang (aku bahkan nggak bisa manggil orang itu sebagai manusia) yang ngambil Kimi di pagi itu. Seperti yang aku bilang sebelumnya, Kimi adalah kucing pertamaku, dia adalah kucing jenis anggora, Kimi adalah betina, dia sangat cantik dalam skala kucing. Kimi sangat suka memanjat, dia bahkan biasanya suka duduk di pembatas ruangan yang dari rotan.

Kejadiannya adalah sebagai berikut. Dapur di rumahku terletak di belakang rumah. Setiap pagi, Kimi (yang selalu bangun lebih pagi dari kami) menunggu di depan pintu kamar mamaku (dia biasanya selalu membangun mamaku di pagi hari dengan menggaruk-garuk pintu kamar mamaku jam 4 pagi). Mamaku lalu ke dapur untuk memasak dan Kimi mengikuti dari belakang. Sebelum memasak, mamaku selalu membuka jendela agar udara di dapur lebih segar, dan Kimi selalu menemani mamaku masak dengan duduk di bingkai jendela yang dibuka. Jendelanya hanya berukuran persegi panjang kecil, terletak di dinding bagian atas yang memang hanya tujuannya agar udara masuk. Semua jendela di rumahku dipasang teralis, termasuk jendela dapur. Selagi mamaku menunggu masakan matang, mamaku mengambil bahan di kulkas yang berada di ruang makan. Ketika dia balik, Kimi sudah tidak ada lagi di jendela. Mamaku menganggap biasa-biasa saja, karena memang kebiasaan Kimi yang suka keliling di dalam rumah (dia bahkan pernah masuk ke lubang pipa yang ada di ruang jemuran).

Setelah mamaku masak, mamaku pun membangunkanku (meskipun punya alarm, mama adalah alarm paling berguna, haha ) agar aku bersiap-siap untuk ikut ujian masuk universitas. Aku juga ketika ingin berangkat menganggap biasa-biasa saja karena memang Kimi selalu suka pindah-pindah ruangan, jadi memang jarang kelihatan. Setelah aku ujian, selesai sekitar jam 3 sore, aku dijemput oleh mamaku dan mamaku memberi tahu kalau Kimi tidak kelihatan di rumah. Sontaklah aku panik di jalan, hingga ketika aku sampai di rumah, aku langsung mencari Kimi sampai 3 kali, bahkan memanggilnya dengan suara keras. Tetapi tidak ada respon sama sekali dan bahkan dia tidak kelihatan sekali pun. Ternyata ketika aku mengecek di dapur, di jendela dapur terdapat banyak sekali bulu-bulu kucing, aku tahu bahwa Kimi telah diambil paksa oleh orang di luar rumahku dengan memanjat pot tanaman yang ada di bawah jendela dapur.

You know that when person already finished the test, that person will felt at ease. Tetapi aku tidak merasakannya… Aku mengunci kamarku dan aku menangis.. Menangis yang tadinya hanya lirihan, tiba-tiba menjadi tangisan kejar, yang bahkan papaku dengar dari lantai bawah. Ketika itu, aku merasa bahwa dadaku sesak, aku bahkan tidak lagi memikirkan ujian masuk hari itu. My mom said that they are actually relieved that they found out Kimi’s missing in the noon, when I’m having a test, not in the morning. Because I’m really sure that if I found out KImi’s missing in that morning, I know that I wouldn’t be here, in this university. I know that I couldn’t even go to take the test if I know it. Even if my parents like drag me to the exam’s location, I know that my mind will not be in ease, that I know that I couldn’t even take pencil and use it, I couldn’t even look at the questions, because when I cried in my room when know that Kimi’s missing, all I felt is numb…

Do you know that Kimi is such a nice cat, that she didn’t use her claw to us, I still remember one time when girls in our home tried to cut Kimi’s nails using cat nail clipper, we unaccidentally cut her nail deep, and as a result she was bleeding. No, she didn’t even use her claw to get out of our grip, she tried to get out by kicking with her paws. I know that for sure, that when she was struggle from that animal who kidnapped her, I know that she didn’t even use her claw to defend herself. Heck, she even never bite us. She even rarely meos at us, that’s the reason why my mom didn’t realise that Kimi was taken by that animal. I can’t even imagine Kimi, my fragile cat, living outside of my house. I know that she couldn’t survive out there. I prefer her to dead than missing. It is the unknown what happen to her now that just drives me crazy.

I still remember how excited I was to get my first kitten for my birthday, after weeks of whining to my mom. I still remember, when Kimi joined us to go to Semarang, a ten hour driving, I still remember, when my family sneaked Kimi inside restaurant even though that the waiter said no (calm people, it was an outdoor restaurant, not indoor).

Even though that now I have three cats (Snowy, Molly, Bonnie), I’m still mourning her. I think it’s just me in the house that still feel really sad that she’s gone. Now, I can mention her, and even recall her memories in this house. But, there’s time when I look at her picture or even just thinking about that day that suddenly I’m crying.

And God… I know that it’s been a year that Kimi was gone, but now I’m writing this with all of my tears just come out from my eyes. It’s still painful when I’m thinking about Kimi. I just can’t let it go from my hearts.

Up until now, Internet is such great helper for me to overcome this. I realized that, there are many people out there, that actually have some experience like me. Even I found out that there’s few people who’s still crying for his/her cat after 10 years missing. And actually, I feel really glad, that I’m normal, that I’m not the only one who felt like this. Maybe because she’s my first pet that I really love (my previous pets are turtle, bunny, chicken), that I could bonding too, are the reasons why I feel such an overwhelming sadness.

For those of you who have a pet in your house, take a good care of them. They have heart too you know! Treat them as one of your family.

And last, here’s a quote:

“Until one has loved an animal a part of one’s soul remains unawakened” – Anatole France

xoxo

Nami

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